The times they are a changin'

...  They say time changes people. I wouldn't know. It makes them grow older, smarter, wiser, but does it change them? I look now at the people from two years ago, and little has changed, my perception of them, what I imagine their perception of me must be like, the state of our... is relationship the right word to use?

I keep thinking that if we think our friends, our family have changed, its just that they have begun to reveal a part of themselves they never showed us before. Does that make us shun them? Its not like their personality seems to have changed - wisened, like I said, perhaps, but...

What did you think? What about me? What has changed? My core is the same, no? Same basic attributes, difficulties, things that eveyone knows and yet no one dares to say because they are the truth. Perhaps it is too much to bear the full weight of your existence. I hate it when people tell me, elders of course, "Oh, you're only 18, so it's okay." Is it okay? To not have taken responsibility, to be floating in the void? Should I choose now, and pray that my choice is right?

The word choice brings about a paralell issue that I've been thinking about. You know, when you catch yourself saying something you don't actually think is true, or preacting whithout practicing. Should people believe in things half-assedly? Without acually applying them.
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I dunno. I guess-

I fell asleep. I don't know what I was talking about. Nothing at all. Working on holidays is draining, after all.